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Confused, but Completely Secure (Again) June 9, 2008 By Sarah
k. Holland I thought I
was done with this phase. This waiting
on God to show me the way business. Apparently I
was wrong. Four years ago
I confidently penned an article
for 90&9. I had graduated with my undergrad in English,
and though I was growing impatient for God to open an employment,
I was completely secure in the knowledge that He was going to do
so. The following school term I completed two long-term subs
in the same school district and was sure I would be hired at the
end of it. Instead, the principal hired his former boss' son
(and who could blame him; I certainly didn't). I was disappointed,
and frustrated, and a little lost for direction, when I was offered
a job at a private school. Now, this is certainly never an
arena I thought I would willingly go in to. But I needed a
job, and it seemed that this was the door God was opening.
I always knew that my true dream was not to teach high school, but
to teach college, and so, almost as soon as I hired in, I began
applying to graduate schools. Just Graduated (Again) Now, after two
and a half very long years, I've graduated with my Masters in English.
I couldn't be any more thrilled. Commencement was such a huge
day for me. I think I felt more proud of myself at that moment
than I have at any other, ever. So now, here
I am, graduated, ready to leave behind the world of high school
and teach full-time at the college level. Yah. It's
funny that in 2004, I thought there were no jobs teaching high school.
Turns out there are even less opportunities to teach college.
So here I am,
repeating the same phase, the waiting-on-God-to-show-me-the The truth is
that at times I've found myself beginning to get frustrated and
starting to lose patience. And then I came across that little
testimony I'd written four years ago. And I realized that
while the readers never heard the next step in the story, I know
it. I know that God opened doors that I never would've even
thought to go through. I know that He provided, when I saw
no way for provisions. I can't help but realize that once
again, I'm confused, but completely secure. I can't wait
to see what amazing direction God opens up this time! © 2008, Sarah
k. Holland ------- Sarah k. Holland is an associate editor at ninetyandnine.com. She spends her days sending out resumes, and her nights reading old 90&9 articles. |
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