Trapped Between Worlds--Uncomfortable with Like-minded Believers

September 29, 2008

By Chantell Smith 

Not having a place to fully embrace is a tough place to be.   

In the first world, which is known as “The World,” I'm marveled at as if I stepped fresh out of the 18th century.  “You don't_____?”  Gasps are heard.  “You've never_____?”  Jaws drop.  Eyes widen.  Heads shake.  How could someone with such a lifestyle exist in this world and not be Amish?  I'm exaggerating.  But sometimes, that's how I feel perceived by some through the eyes of The World. 

I console myself with the fact that it's okay if I feel out of place in The World.  I'm not supposed to feel in my element there.  We're in the world, but not of it (John 15:19), right?  I've got that.  But where am I left if I also feel out of sorts in the other world--the world that I'm supposed to be a part of?   

Friendly Fire?

The other world is what I'd like to describe as a world within The World.  This is where I'm supposed to fit in.  This is the place that I call home.  It's a place where I'm surrounded with believers like myself that hold the same things dear.  A place where I'm in touch with people who, though they also feel out of place in The World, want to be salt of the earth, and a light in dark places. 

However, I've found myself, at times, disassociated from this world for reasons that have nothing to do with my goals being inconsistent with this world's overall goal of seeking and saving that which was lost.   Do political views that differ from the majority in this world belie my desire to reach those in The World?  Does my secularly educated mind undermine my biblical savvy?  Does my desire to understand diverse cultures and religions reflect disregard for my own?  Does my belief that women can be called to the same vocations to which men are traditionally called equal radical feminism?  Does my concern with social issues imply a disinterest for spiritual issues?  My discomfort arises in this world within The World when my answer to all of the aforementioned questions is a resounding “no,” while many around me unhesitatingly nod “yes”. 

It may be easy for some to assume, “The discomfort you feel is actually conviction from the Holy Ghost.  You're the one who needs to change.”  I respectfully disagree.  I could not, in good conscience, conform for the sake of conformity.  External pressure should not be conflated with spiritual conviction. 

Lockstep Lemmings?

What distresses me about feeling on the outside--grappling with life between worlds--is not simply my frustration over feeling misunderstood.  My frustration is a symptom of something more menacing--a trend, not necessarily a new one, towards polarization; worse, towards intolerance of dissent.  

Polarization is harmful because it immediately assumes that if you're not for on all counts, you are by default against.  There's no room for a variety of opinions and viewpoints to be considered, which diminishes chances for productive dialogue.  It's also harmful because it causes division.  It fosters an unfruitful pitting of sides that causes all to lose sight of the main goal.   

The same goes for intolerance of dissent.  There are definitely things spelled out in the Bible that we as believers should not tolerate--lying, backbiting, and pride are a few examples--but intolerance of dissenting views on non-salvational issues cannot in the least bit be considered a biblical mandate.  It disheartens me when those I love behave as though it is.  A common analogy used to describe the Body of Christ is that of an army--an army of the Lord, marching into battle against “spiritual wickedness in high places” (Ephesians 6:12).  But in doing so, are we required to march in lockstep? 

Stronger for our Differences

I want my brothers and sisters in the Lord to recognize that the Body of Christ is a wildly diverse group of people.  People come from all walks of life, from a variety of racial, social and cultural backgrounds, with a variety of points of view forged by a variety of life experiences.  It does the Body a disservice, then, for there to exist an expectation that we all check the same boxes on an ideological checklist.  Not being in agreement doesn't weaken us--alienating ourselves and others due to disagreement does.   

There needs to be room for dissent, understanding for those in the minority, and love for those who may feel misunderstood. I do not feel that we all have to think the same, but the Bible says there is a “mind” we should all strive to have: “Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 2:5). 

ninetyandnine.com

© 2008, Chantell Smith 

Chantell Smith is a former elementary and middle school Spanish teacher currently adjusting to the intellectual stimulation and abject poverty of grad school life.

contact information: 
Please let us know your opinion by giving feedback on an article or the site.
general information: general@ninetyandnine.com
copyright © 2007 www.ninetyandnine.com