Sunday, May 20, 2007
Unconquered Fears
One of the major unconquered aspect of my life is a relationship!
Overall, I'm happy being single. I look at my busy life, and I know that trying to fit a guy into the equation would only mess things up. I know that dating would be a huge sacrifice, and there aren't many that I find worth my efforts. I don't mean that to sound conceited, I'm simply not settling.
So there is this one guy who I am willing to sacrifice a lot for, but unfortunately, I don't think the feeling is mutual. I've told him that being his friend is hard because I know that I want more than that. He agreed, but he hasn't made a move.
I've had so many conversations with Jesus in my car about this. I trust God. I have no other choice. I can't make someone love me. However, no matter how much I trust God, it doesn't stop my heart from breaking when I hear that the guy is talking to another girl.
I am Ms. Independent. I can conquer England and Italy. I can handle obnoxious 7th graders. I just can't conquer that feeling in my heart for him....and that scares me.
Questions, comments, concerns? Please feel free to E-mail me!
Overall, I'm happy being single. I look at my busy life, and I know that trying to fit a guy into the equation would only mess things up. I know that dating would be a huge sacrifice, and there aren't many that I find worth my efforts. I don't mean that to sound conceited, I'm simply not settling.
So there is this one guy who I am willing to sacrifice a lot for, but unfortunately, I don't think the feeling is mutual. I've told him that being his friend is hard because I know that I want more than that. He agreed, but he hasn't made a move.
I've had so many conversations with Jesus in my car about this. I trust God. I have no other choice. I can't make someone love me. However, no matter how much I trust God, it doesn't stop my heart from breaking when I hear that the guy is talking to another girl.
I am Ms. Independent. I can conquer England and Italy. I can handle obnoxious 7th graders. I just can't conquer that feeling in my heart for him....and that scares me.
Questions, comments, concerns? Please feel free to E-mail me!
# posted by 99 Blogger @ 9:44 PM 
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I understand your feelings. It is hard to have your heart broken and bruised and then have it all start all over again. Life is tough and it causes many people to fall under its trying loads, but God is there to carry our heavy loads and to help with the aches and pains that comes with it. Keep the faith and trust in Him. The right one is really out there.
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