A Month in the Life

Well, we celebrated my brother and Dad's B-days today. And I'll go ahead and let you know the most important piece of information about me. Cheesecake is my sinful self-indulgence. I LOVE IT! Anyway, we had a chef here in Memphis make a White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cheesecake with a white chocolate moose drizzle and white chocolate chips on top. OMG! It was incredible! But I digress, back to the earth's atmosphere. I am completely worn out from the festivities. I sat for an hour and played Madden '07 with my little cousin who has a new infatuation with the Nintendo Gamecube. (I'm more of an Xbox 360 man myself. Well, I take it back. I'm really into the old-school Nintendo. You know -- Da Da Da Da Da DA da . . . and so on and so forth . . . This has gone on WAY too long. lol) But I spent the bulk of my day trying to repair a connection with my wireless internet provider through my router at the church today. It was a futile attempt to say the least. I did however achieve SOME internet response. The meter now reads, "Internet connection -- Low strength (and rising)" But I managed to eliminate every option that would point to it being a problem with the "provider." That would leave the only hitch in the "layout" to be the "receiver." The way I went about fixing this is, I had to open up my "list of available networks," then I had to move my ISP (Internet Service Provider) up to the top position. This means that when I need information or anything from the internet, that the first "connection" that the computer "looks for" is my ISP. This struck some very interesting parallels for me today.

A lot of the time we think that when we can't get a "connection" with God, that it's a "provider" problem or that He's "hidden" Himself somewhere. But maybe it's just that we need to "re-prioritize" our list of connections so that He is the first One that we turn to. Because there's a lot of things to connect to that will temporarily fix your problem or give you something that "might" work for a little while. But eventually, you'll lose your connection. If I , or any Christian for that matter, can grasp the concept that "it's NOT all about me and MY desires, then we're well on the way to establishing a better "connection" with God. And I say "on the way" because once I prioritized my list of connections, the meter still read, "connection low (and rising)." It's not a quick thing once you get back on track. You were used to living for yourself, but you have to let your connection grow, and live your life for God. That's my random thoughts for the night.

Bye all,
Billiam

Ok, first off, let me say that I LOVE Thursdays! Why? Well, since you asked, I am off ALL DAY on Thursdays. This allows me to not focus on school for an entire 24 hours! Heck yes! Instead I can focus on recording performance soundtracks or graphic design or some recent Photoshop work from earlier in the week. OR . . . my personal fav . . . I can finish my latest book en devour. And while I'm at it, let me take a moment to say that God is AMAZING! No explanation needed, He's just AMAZING. I think a lot of the time, we lose our grip on what exactly that word means. It's more than an adjective to grace. It's a word that embodies a "loss for words." lol How ironic is that? Want to delve deeper? ok, here's a few derivatives:

Amazing:

Astonishing, astounding, surprising, stunning, staggering, shocking, startling, stupefying, breath-taking, awesome, awe-inspiring, sensational, remarkable, spectacular, stupendous, phenomenal, extraordinary, incredible, unbelievable, mind-blowing, jaw-dropping, wonderous . . . etc.

What's even more ironic is that we even TRY to describe God at all. My personal favs are

1. Breath-taking
2. Awe-inspiring
3. Mind-blowing
4. Incredible
5. Sensational

Now for the heck of it, I'll let you in on the way my mind works. Or as I like to put it, my stream of consciousness during these "God realization moments."

1. Breath-taking -- This is simple enough. Whatever "is" breath-taking, takes your breath from you. Therefore, God is the breath of life, so if we go with this whole, "God's breath = spiritual side vs. natural breath = human nature / ability to understand" then when God "takes your breath away," He strips you of your human reasoning which we lean on far too much sometimes, and fills you with all things Holy and Pure.

2. Awe-inspiring -- Self explanatory.

3. Mind-blowing -- When you try to put too much air into a balloon, it pops. When you try to put to much into a trash bag, it rips. When you try to cram something "infinite" into something extremely "finite" as the human mind, then you have what is known as "mind-blowing."

4. Incredible -- To be incredible means to be "without - credit" or "without credentials" or "having nothing previous to base worth on" You're probably thinking, Huh? That sucks. God has no credit? Well, think about it. If your situation is hopeless, and you see NO way out by any means of human possibility. The fact that God is "incredible" should give you a great sense of hope. That means that there is NO situation that comes along that God CAN'T take care of. Because he doesn't need a precedent or proof that he can do it. He just does it. He's God for a reason you know? lol

5. Sensational -- I just like this word. It implies that God isn't tied to one way of touching people. There are literally Millions upon Millions of sensations out there. So God didn't limit himself to just 'crying' or just 'leaping and shouting.' He made it so that He could touch anyone, anytime, any way that HE wanted to. That just makes me smile that He thinks that much of me. And I'm also happy that He thinks that much of Himself. lol

Anyway, I've typed myself into a cramp, and I still have to analyze some Mozart for tomorrow's class. So, I will say goodnight, and . . . yes . . . you guessed it . . . I'm going to be cliche . . . God bless. rofl

Later.
Billiam

Hi folks.
I'm tired. You know, that "aching for bed, hurts when you lay down, but feels SOOO good at the same time" kind of tired. I'm also slowly being convinced that God miscounted when He decided how many hours to put into the human "day." But there is always a small hope for me at the end of the day. A hope so wonderful that it almost flows 'mellifluously' off the tongue when you say it. And what is this hope you may ask? What I accomplish during the day doesn't amount to ANYTHING. Huh? You can pick your jaw up off the floor now. My reasoning is thus. What GOD accomplishes in MY day THROUGH me, amounts to EVERYTHING. This is the "big picture." I've really been trying to bring myself back to the "reason" that I'm here. That reason being GOD's will, or desire for my life. This will isn't some end destination or "final" thing that I'm trying to get to. This is a journey moving ever closer toward finding the heart and desire of God. And once I find what He wants, then I'll know what 'I' want.

By the way, could you tell that "mellifluous" is my FAV word at the moment? I should start implementing a word of the day, so people could read, AND get smarter at the same time. What a genius idea! rofl. Later, dudes and dudetts.

Billiam

Well . . . I've discovered two important facts today. (well, actually . . . one's a fact, the other is just a mindless observation/classification of myself.) The first of the said information being: I'm poor. And the second being : I'm emo. So with that said, let's tackle the first.

We had a discussion in my marketing/music industry/professional brown-nosing class today. (take your pick, it's all the same. rofl) And it was reaffirmed that I am a poor college student. And what brought this on you may ask? Ahem . . . that would be the fact that Celine Dion payed $5 Million per day for her tour bus rig while on tour. And that was the discussion during the three hours that I endured my professor's "road stories." Oh, btw, this was a SEVEN MONTH tour.

Anyway, I have also discovered that I have a real (insert word that I'm at a loss for at the moment, but know that it's something along the lines of "love" right . . . HERE) for the written work. I'm currently in the middle of three different books. And I'm actually consistently reading them. Erwin McManus is a GENIUS! "Soul Cravings" is, at the moment, my favorite book. OH . . . sry, I've seemed to gotten sidetracked from my point. What does this have to do with me being "emo," you may ask? Well, I don't know really, I just like that style of music lately. (aside from my usual David Crowder Band obsession. hehe) Plus, I've heard, that I fit most of the "characteristics." But we'll wait and see. Regardless, today was the most exaustingest day ever. (Yes, I know that I used bad English. I can do that, "I'm" typing. lol) I actually did that to hack off my "obvious" friend. ;) Later folks. Maybe I'll have a point next time. But then again, not having a point kinda IS the point. Adue.

Billiam

Hi, I'm Billy. Let me get some frivolous details out of the way.

1. I love music.
2. I love God. (that's a given)
3. I'm just enjoying typing a list now.
4. No really . . . It's a blast.
5. You should really try it. It's therapeutic.

Ok . . . I'm finished being random. Not really, but you'll find that out as the month drags on. SO . . . I had a songwriting class tonight that was VERY unprepared for. But that's the usual story with MOST of my classes. Oh, btw, I'm a very intelligent person, just not a very self-disciplined one. lol Anyway, since this is my first blog, I'll let you off the hook without a long, drawn-out spiritual revelation. rofl. L - 8 - er.

Billiam